It is day 2 of the new work year and I feel great!
Moving offices is one of the best things that happened to me. After working in a particular location for about six years, I have to make a mental note each morning not to go to my old office location. This reminds me of when I just got married. I always thought I’d forget that I live in my husband’s house and leave my office for my mom’s…. this never happened. I realized that my being was ready to move on (abokoku 🙂 ).
I’d like to share some good news with you.
I stopped bleeding last night! It is a miracle! This is after five weeks and after various medications!
During this time, apart from the bleeding, I suffered a really bad cough which was accompanied by a really sore throat. I have not slept well in over a week, my body hurts and I had a really low libido.
I have had time to think through a lot of things and I must confess, there is no way I will take little things for granted anymore.
Bleeding for so long made me miss the serenity of having a stable menstrual cycle, rid me of the joy of taking baths with my daughter and basically missed being totally healthy and comfortable.
I understand fully now that every day is a gift, every moment of peace and serenity is a blessing.
My heart really does go out to those who are suffering from one illness or another, who have been taken away from their comfort zone, who are subjected to the use of various types of medications, who are taking care of a sick loved one – this, I have learnt is almost as bad as being sick yourself. Do not be dismayed, nothing lasts forever. Everything that has a beginning surely has an end.
My favorite phrase growing up was ‘This too shall pass’. I held on to it during bad times and it always kept me going.
I have written about a support system previously, this is key. No man is an island. We all need to learn when to hit the ‘pause’ button. We need to understand that it is okay to be weak. We need to admit we need help. My support system keeps me going. I can face whatever life throws at me because of these blessed people the Lord has surrounded me with. We know and trust God not to give us more than we can bear. With this in mind, identify who these people are in your life and bask in the joy of knowing you are never alone.
In my marriage, I have learnt not to act more macho than I really am. You see, when I was single, I put all my effort in being unbreakable. I took on life’s lemons and tried to make lemonades. Little did I know that they were all piling as unresolved issues which later contributed to the breakdown I suffered.
Now I live my life easy.
Taking it a day at a time. There are so many things beyond my control, I have faith that all works together for my good. That’s how I remain sane. That’s how I don’t freak out and that’s how I get things done.