No Longer Slaves.

Many months ago I suffered a mental illness which the doctors termed as Post-partum Psychosis.

This term according to Wikipedia, is ‘a term that covers a group of mental illnesses with the sudden onset of psychotic symptoms following childbirth’. ‘A typical example is for a woman to become irritable, have extreme mood swings and hallucinations, and possibly need psychiatric hospitalization’

However to me, it just felt like I lost my mind.

I was conscious but unconscious, I saw things that only my mind conjured up. I remember a particular moment where I saw myself chasing after my own mind! It (my mind) had a shape of a heart and it seemed to have legs which made it outrun me!! Bizarre? I agree.

Often times as I was told, all I did was cry out for my husband (funnily years ago, I would have called out to my mom).

Anyway, I went through the toughest, darkest period of my life.

I felt hopeless, I felt defeated.

Wonder why I’m reminiscing about all this?

I recently listened to a song titled ‘No longer slaves’ by Jonathan David and Melissa Helser (check it out: song).

This song lifts my spirit so high I feel I can fly! I have not been able to go hours without listening to it.

I cast my mind back to those days when I was a slave to fear. The days I buried members of my family in my mind, times I was paralyzed with the fear of death, the days I battled with bad thoughts, moments when I surrendered to fear, times I felt so worthless and undeserving of all I had…

The beginning of the song starts with ‘You unravel me with a melody You surround me with a song, of deliverance from my enemies, ‘Til all my fears are gone…’

I, Modupe have been liberated from my bondage, I sing my freedom! He has drowned my fears in perfect love, He rescued me and I will stand and sing I am a child of God!

God alone can liberate, God alone can free, God alone gives multiple chances, to Him alone I surrender. Draw near to Him and live! Live a life free of fear, a life so abundant, a life of peace.

To Jonathan and Melissa, I am grateful to you for putting to song exactly what I feel in my heart.

I declare once again that I am no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God.

liz-i

 

 

Advertisements

11 thoughts on “No Longer Slaves.

  1. Dee says:

    Wow! Super bold of you to share this. Thank you

    I love love love the song”No longer Slaves”…so powerful. Everytime i hit the replay button its like I’m listening to it for the 1st time.

    Im so happy and thankful for Gods grace and mercy upon your life. And I declare that we are no longer Slaves to fear IJN. Cheers to a greater level of supernatural Joy

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Tosin says:

    He who the Lord sets free is free indeed!!!
    Congratulations on your victory again and I salute your bravery. Well done dear. God bless and keep you now and always IJN. Amen.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s